Splendor of Autumn

Just wish so much

we could sneak away

to a peaceful setting

just us two--

time to reflect

to take in nature's beauty

to talk and laugh

(just me and you).

My soul craves

the gift

 of nature's beauty--

but the gift would be

all the BETTER

to explore, to see

if only YOU were here

so that you too

 could share it with me!

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Wishes, Wishing...

Wishing I could have stopped time

Wishing you could still be here

to watch with me

and someday

to be out there

on the water 

with me.

Just wishing.

Isn't it awesome now

that my wishes

are so different 

than days 

of long ago?

Just wishing

wishing, wishing

and somehow

I know

that one day

one very fine day

all the wishes 

I hold deep inside

will somehow 

come true.

And when they do

I know somehow, someway

those wishes

will include you.

Thank you 

for those moments spent

lakeside

the other day--

thank you

for the time

for the memories

for making me feel

so special, so real.

I hope you felt

it too.

I love you.

Memories Made

With the sun dipping low

retreating from our evening sky

I watch it sink

as it journeys 

to the other side of this world

and I think of you

so close,

yet so far

from me now--

you will be heading home

to your far away land

and truly, I do understand

and know that is where

you need to be--

but I still have my memories 

of you being with me

and those memories are what 

will continue to  sustain 

and comfort me--

those moments

when we walked side by side,

hand in hand,

talking and laughing

and enjoying life together then

and if you're wondering--

yes, I saw, I felt your huge, wide grin--

mine was there too

encompassing my heart

and I just felt GOOD inside

I know you did too.

So, just wanted to tell you

once again--

see?  wishes do come true...

Just Wishing...

Wishing, hoping one day
that you will be sitting on this bench
with me.
Basking in the brisk 
evening air,
listening to 
the birds singing,
watching them fly free--
gazing out at the lake
(Hopefully it will be full
once again by then!)
Watching the sailboats
glide by,
Peering at the beautiful
evening sky...

Tonight
this is what we would see--
but I'm going to believe
and will it to be so
that soon this beloved lake
of mine will once again have
an abundant flow 
of water reaching each shore
full to the brim --
and then, and then
perhaps we might sneak 
in a swim...?  Not.
But I'd settle for just gazing
at the lake--right next to you
and getting to see your eyes of blue.  #

Loving

For as long as I can remember 

all I have ever wanted was to be loved and to give love.

  To be free to express this deep appreciation

 that lives inside of me

 for other living creatures

 who share this space in time with me.  

David Viscott  says it 

so succinctly:  "To Love and  be loved 

is to feel the sun from both sides."

I feel the sun

even on the cloudiest days

for the warmth of love

holds me close,

embraces me 

and gives me a joy 

that I carry with me 

wherever I go.

And in turn?

My goal, my dream, my hope

is to give this huge love 

to others 

to spread this joy and warmth

that lives within me

and to see the smiles, the wonder

and the happiness

that envelopes me

embracing others I meet

along my way.

Always I will endeavor
 to feel the sun

from both sides.

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I Am A Spiritual Being...

Sometimes I know beyond a doubt 

that I chose this existence

that I jumped into this reality

because I wanted to experience

something new, exciting and fun.

But upon jumping into this life time,

this reality -- I am finding 

that it is truly difficult

to remember 

that this life is just so transient.

We are not here for very long...

Time will fly and soon we will have to accept

that this existence, this time and place

has served the purpose 

we came here for

and then we'll move along

to the next great adventure.

But wait, wait!  I hear myself say--

I have so much I have yet to do--

I have so much I still want to learn--

There is so much I want to see,

experience, feel and share...

The list can go on and on...

And besides, I'm not ready to move on yet--

so many here that I want to be near

so many that I want to hug and hold tight to me

so many that I want to know just what

I feel inside, so much of what I want them to see--

So if it's quite alright...

I want to stick around and have more

of this awesome human experience.

I have all of eternity 

to go back to my existence

as a spiritual being.

So onward I go

living this life and knowing

that one day the time will come

when I have to depart

but I know that until 

my time 

is done, I am going to live

to  enjoy  and create 

and have all kinds of fun!!!

#

Dream Home

I can envision a life here.  Surrounded by water, lush vegetation and blooming flowers and beautiful trees.  What more could I want?   hmmm...


Perhaps someone special to share this vision, this dream home with me?


Is that too much to want, to hope for?
I think not.
I think as long as there is air to breathe
that there can be hope
that someday, somehow, someway
I will find that someone 
who could live happily ever after with me.
Until then, I will continue to dream, to hope and to smile and envision the joy of sharing a life with someone who can share the dream of spending time on this earth with me...

Sunsets...

Just want to share the sunset

with you.

Is that okay?

Wish you were here

to see it too.

Wish you were with me

this very day.

Wish your arms

were enfolding me

as we watch the sun

dip from the western sky--

wish you were here

to hold me close

wish I could just 

feel you near.

So many wishes.

Someday perhaps

all of them 

will come true.

Until then...

I'll just keep wishing

to get to be 

with you...

Thoughts of You

I can't help it.

I have dreams,

I have fantasies,

I have hopes.

Please.

If it's quite alright,

I would just like to have

the chance

to hold you, feel you near--

to look into

those blue eyes of yours

and get to see

the reflection of my smile,

my heart, my love

looking back at me.

I do love you.

Always have.

Always will.

All I can be

is just who I am

and hope

and pray

and believe

that who I am

is good enough;

I'm just me.

I miss you.

Forgive me,

but I do.

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Don't blame me for my imagination--

I keep wondering 

what if?

I know you do too--

I keep picturing our travels

just me and just you--

going on adventures,

the laughter, the smiles, the love

we two share...

Flying through the highways

without too many cares

just enjoying our time

seeing the sites

and oh--the songs!

I can hear us now--

singing along

to the music

we hear on the radio--

no other love I've had or known

has ever shared with me

(or shown)

the talent of song

as you always did

way back when

I miss you love.

I miss you now,

I miss you then.

Sigh...

#  Bright Eyes